To all that hold the light inside their hearts

Of every creature that walks the earth we are the most recent and most "evolved", yet we are also the most fragile. We are the most sensitive to our surroundings and although it may seem unnatural to us we have to develop filters to sort trough what happens around us and how others react to us. I was lucky enough to have loving parents who never tried to suppress what I am but unfortunately my interaction with the rest of the world did not go so smoothly. Being teased and insulted for many years does have the advantage that you learn to be patient. I have found that if you let people see what you really are they will either back away in fear or become lifelong friends and relationships. Sometimes there are people you would prefer would not back away but they do, it is part of our lives to see the people who are not ready to see our true selves back away. While we may love these people dearly we must not interfere with their lives if they do not want us to, just love them for who they are and know that they will come back into your life one day when you least expect it. The tide of fear that comprised most of the past millennia is slowly ebbing away, We are the tide of love that has come to wash away what the old energy has left.

Carl (22)

My first poem, written twenty one years ago
when I was eight ( I remember it ) is called I told you so;

I know what I want to be,
but no one else can seem to see.
They all think it's just some joke,
but they don't know that my heart broke
When they all laughed at me
and said that I can never be
I know I know what's right and wrong,
is my will week or my feeling strong.
in my heart I know I can succeed
but is their approval what I need
I can overcome the things they say
and I will be the best some day
and when I'm a star and they all know
I'll look back and laugh, I told you so.

I feel like I am too old to contribute to this forum because these indigo voices all seem to come from such young ones, but I would be kidding myself and I have never been able to do that. I have known I am different for as long as I can remember yet the alienation I felt from the people who could not understand, still cannot understand has always been tempered by my feeling that everyone else was missing the point. I get called arrogant allot. My aunt whom I cherish introduced me to the Indigo children at a time when I was going crazy wondering what was wrong with my kid, or me as a parent. I read the descriptions of these children and immediately related them to my hyperactive Raven child but wise old Aunty Kate asked me to think further and consider who else fit the bill. It was not Raven that she first thought of when she read the descriptions, it was me. As the mother of my 6 year old indigo warrior I see that even though his Waldorf teachers love him and want to work with him because he is special and beautiful that he too is being alienated regardless of our best intentions. We are trying but it is not easy in this structured world and breaking down the walls is tiring and tedious work. Square pegs, round holes, making it fit is not working. It is impossible to contain us. We will be alienated and separated from the pack. We will stand up tall and speak out LOUD and spread our love around. We will be different and we will feel like we are alone but we will know that we are the lucky ones, because deep in our hearts we feel the truth and it feels good. We are not anything more or less than what we are and everyone who need's to try to change us is missing the point. Hopefully soon the scales will be tipped and we will not be the oddities. Hopefully soon we can find a path that is wide enough for everyone to walk. Bust out the seams brothers and sisters and don't take no for an answer. No matter how much effort is required, find a way and let that be the design for our future.

Indigo mothers raising Indigo sons.
 

Hi, I don't know if this will help anyone, it will probably slow the process, but see, I think we're forgetting something, or at least a great part of us which is as beautiful and intricate. We all talk about the light and how we were born only from that, etc. but, I was thinking, without the dark there would be no light. I think it would be a shame if we left behind all that because without it, we cannot shine, but I suppose we don't understand the dark, as little as we understand the light.

from B Thgilkrad
 

Part of the reason the world is so screwed up right now is just because of
fear. People are so scared of what they don't understand, and that causes them
to shut themselves down in an effort to not feel that fear. Unfortunately,
that is only makings worse. By separating your hearts from the ones around you,
you're only causing yourself to live a life filled with numbness instead of
joy. Your joy, and mine, is the catalyst for.. well.. for the changes that are
coming to be positive. You all must understand that there is Nothing to fear in
the coming changes. What's happening in the world is for the best, though it
may not seem like it now. All I can do to alleviate your fears is ask you to
trust one who sees. I am life, and you are life-we are all one being.
One other thing-whatever your believe in terms of spirituality is ok, because
it's all one big truth that can only be comprehended by the heart. But you
have to realize that your truth is no better than someone else's-because they
are all one. It's so little, yet it's so much. We can only understand what we are ready
to understand.


Blessed be-and remember, you are beautiful, and you are loved.
Lacey

This message is for all of us.

Everyone on Earth not just those of our kind. We are here in one way or another to break the traditional conformities and usher in a new era of enlightenment to all of mankind. Most people will resist this because they feel fear of things they do not understand. Do not conform to these people's wishes. We are all unique in our own ways and are more intelligent than the average person. We are not better or worse we are just different with new ideas that frighten the masses as our information contradicts their programming. We write our own programming and individually control our destinies. We have a purpose, a mission if you will, and that is to save this planet and all forms of life on it from their own ignorance. It's a big concept but we are all up to the challenge. Like many of you I was a social outcast because this is not a society. This is a pseudo-society, based on flawed principals, and egomaniacal pretenses.

We are how we are because some form of this universal nature needs us to be the way we are. We all feel this but most don't recognize it because the programming of the masses is beginning to infiltrate our own ideas. To make it simple we are feared. The powers that be can recognize us by our actions, and are trying to shove us into a corner to keep us from accomplishing our goals. I myself was forced out of high school when I was 16. It was deemed in my best interest for me to leave school and get a G.E.D.. which of course I did and now regret. I thought that they knew what was best for me but I am the only one who really knows what is best for me, and the planet. We have to be ourselves. The equilibrium of variety has been disrupted by conformance of the masses and we are here as nature's way of balancing out this disruption. In all of nature there exists equilibrium. When you leave a hot cup of coffee out it gets cold when you leave a cold soda out it gets warm. This is the same situation.

I know many of us contemplate suicide but this is not the answer and before any of you consider it I suggest you take a long deep look at this option as a non-option. This is exactly what they want. I have made a conscious decision not to die because I will not let them win without a fight. I may be killed by the hands of the very people I am trying to rescue but it will not be by my own hand. I live each day simply to be able to see the newest ridiculous ideas thrown out into the world by people who are a dangerous savage child race. We are here to save humanity from itself. The universe has commissioned us to bring new thoughts into the world and to expose the technologies and ideas that have been repressed, all to benefit us, not as a single separate race but as one of the many facets of all humanity uniting the world in the common good of all people indigo or not. Would any of us dare tell the universe no. While there would be no punishment for telling the universe no there would also be no fulfillment.

I have sent Laura lee Mysticha several messages recently. She is dedicated to helping us find our purpose. She requested to include my message to her in her new book and I agreed whole heartedly to that and wish her to include this message as well should she come across it. The planet is struggling for survival and has asked us to help it back into harmony. I for one am willing to face the worst hardships to help. I don't care about what other people think of me, I don't mind ridicule, hardship, or even facing certain death to do my part. We are all of free will and spirit and must make our own decisions. This message is not meant to influence your decision but simply to show you some of the options available. We can either A. Give up now or B. Fight with our last ounce of breath to accomplish what we set out to do. I choose B. If death is the worst consequence for my actions then I choose to act, for even death is not finality. We all have some sense that there is something more to life than this.

I know the world makes allot of you sick to your stomach. It does the same thing to me. But we can do only two things. A. Suck it up and accept it, or B. Do something about it. We were put here to do something about it so even if I am alone in this quest that's damn sure what I am going to do. I don't welcome death but I don't fear it either. So what I am going to do is buckle my seatbelt and drive, not just simply enjoy the ride. We have to unite to accomplish our goals. None of us can accomplish this huge task by ourselves.

Think about this for a moment. You feel rebellious and you get ill at what you see happening around you. This is because there has to be a rebellion and something is gravely wrong within the minds of the powers that be. Paranoia is associated with conspiracy theorists and they are mocked. I say paranoia is a sense we were given to help us see clearly when something is wrong. It is a feeling we get even without certain proof of wrong doing. I say many if not all of the conspiracy theories out there today are largely based on some degree of truth and are well founded. The truth is the powers that be act in secret more often than they act publicly. Every secret action is a conspiracy. The Manhattan Project, project blue book, project sign, The Majestic Twelve the Kennedy assassination The 9/11 attacks, the federal reserve act the Internal Revenue Service, I could go on and on. Every one of these things began in secrecy and the truth of the matters are not disclosed. This is a conspiracy.

What these people don't say is far more important than what they do say. Their silence speaks louder than their words, but most people are too deafened by media spin to hear it. So now you know why we are here, and what we have to do. The only question now is how do we go about it without using violence. Violent conflict solves nothing, only educated debate can prevail. We just have to find a way to be heard. And this is the reason many of you feel isolated and frustrated. You are isolated and the powers that be would rather you kill yourself than open your mouth. Your ideas are a threat to reality as they know it and they consider you a threat to national security. I know there is a draft coming soon to prolong the battle in Iraq and force the people into oppression. I for one will not kill for oil, or any other reason. I cherish the sacerdotal right to life of all forms. I will not be a part to enslaving a people to preserve my illusion of freedom. I know I am not free in this country.

I leave you now to contemplate the thoughts I entrust to you, and if this is my only contribution to mankind it is far more valuable than the creation of the atomic bomb. My words are meant to inspire people to think and create, the A-bomb is meant only for destruction and oppression. True future breakthroughs will not be of technology, but of the mind. Deep inside all of us lies a power far greater than the fastest super computer, and faster than the most technological craft. The power of our imagination traveling at the speed of thought is the greatest power in all of the universe, and if we are to survive our own differences then we are going to have to push this power to it's limits. To all of you who read this message I wish you joy and happiness, as well as the freedom and spiritual enlightenment that you deserve. You'll be hearing from me in the future. Until next time.

Robert D. Johnson
 

We Are Indigo

We have no race,
But are one culture

We have no ethnicity,
But are a single community

We speak that
That is not spoken

We think that
That is not thought of

We hear that
That is not heard

We dream of reality,
And realize our dreams

We are not confined by colors,
But are rather a color beyond the spectrum

We are children
Children of the future
Children of evolution
Children of the light

Your Children:
The Crystalline Children
The New Children
The Indigo Children

By Ali Dirul-Islam

Hi, apparently I'm an indigo. I went to a psychic (a real one) about a year ago and she told me there's very few indigos my age. I'm almost 20 now and just started looking into all this. for years I've had a strong drive to change the world and I keep trying to figure out ways to accomplish this. I feel like I know how to make the world a better place. when people of my generation become the politicians governing our world, I hope we clear the slate and start from scratch. there are various myths that predict the end of the world with such similarity that I wonder if these predictions are valid. in 2012 this cycle of the Mayan calendar ends. I'm not one to get caught up in apocalyptic hype theories but I see something coming. 2012 I'll be 27, my Saturn return, so it almost makes sense. I'm not sure what other indigos see for our future but I'd like to know.

- Erica
 

The ignorance humans need to seek enlighten. We cant help them if they don't believe in us. I have already seen the greatest problem that control almost every human being including me to the path of light. We REALLY need to shut down the monetary system, money is causing everything to go against nature. MOST deaths, crimes, everything that is just bad is related to money! Did anyone sees that money doesn't cause any happiness among us. We are totally slave to money. I heard all people saying we cant live without money, we cant buy food without money... and yet money isn't part of god or nature and we are. Why must we be control by it.. why.. I myself think that among every all planets, maybe earth is the only planet with monetary system and it is the reason why ET's are more advanced than us so much. Monetary system is created as these pitiful humans need power to play, people can use money to control the poor... Why must we fight over power.. I can see the earth is being killed by the humanity and humanity is going to commit suicide soon if they cant live without greed. God sent us all the way to earth from other galaxies which show humanity SUCKED! SO please WAKE UP!!! People are dying and money is always related. People are often saying' This is reality, we need money to live', REALITY??? bullshit.. these people are being slaves to it.

- K" 16YO
 

The Aura of One

Serenity in life cannot be,
Roaming flames of inadequacy.
The question waits of when and where,
The purity of existence will appear.


Psychological beauty of heart,
Piercing the mind as an emotion-charged dart.
Unique and magnificently immense,
Additionally acute and intense.


To whom shall the light shine?


Encapsulated in this advice,
Reigns the animation of streaming life.
Seize this as your sign,
Blatantly losing your apprehensive mind.
And ultimately invoking this one final part,
Trust yourself and live from the heart.

Cheers.
Jeremy

I heard today that calling us indigos is leaving out the possibility for our forgiveness of ourselves and our environment... And God. 

Indigo has no pink in it where violet does. Its not that indigo is a bad colour but our planet is not vibrating indigo anymore; it is now violet.

 I used to love pinks and purples. I used to go to my grandmas cabin every summer and the next-door neighbors called me "purple shirt".

When I was about age 6 I found out that my grandma thought heaven was only for people and that she thought my mother and all the animals and plants when they died, wouldn't go there. And then I thought that if I sinned, which I did every day because I would be proud of myself!, I wasn't going to go either. Since age six I’ve been dealing with anxiety and depression and I hardly can stand wearing pink or purple- colours of forgiveness freedom and compassion.

I just wanted to say I don't want to be angry anymore. Angry at the world for not being how I remember it. Angry with my parents, family and friends and teachers for not acting like gods and goddesses. Angry for being taught that I knew nothing and had no innate knowledge within myself, for never being able to talk about my soul and how ageless it is. Angry about the lies and the lack of training to be compassionate and have fun! Ironic eh?

I'm sick of being angry; it makes me feel numb and paralyzed - bored. I want to love, to be excited to play and discover, to have friends that are just like me yet mysterious and creative!  I want to look at every one and feel good about being here on earth at this time. I want to see the other dimensions for fun - like a video game or movie. Life is a game, non? I want to smile at the face of fear until it can't be afraid because it has to laugh.

It's been 2 years since high school. Yes, I almost dropped out 2 months before graduation too. What was the point? I didn't value the education. I valued my friends... And my friendships with teachers, but that was about it other than acting class. I could have learned more on my own. I knew I was smart; I had a b average and my job as a lifeguard in the summer paid me 18 bucks an hour!

I tried to go back to school last year. I didn't even make it through one semester! 4 classes - dropped.

 I was diagnosed with add this summer - finally, someone recognizes that! I'm working on removing all its known causes from my diet (sugar, chocolate, dairy, eggs, corn, chemicals). I actually eat all raw fruits and veggies right now.

I became a kundalini yoga instructor this year. And I don't want to stop learning but I don't know where to turn next. Even my teacher training was frustrating me - the way they tested us. The way we didn't sit in a circle during class. I'm afraid to go back to school because I fear that they'll tell me "it's not time, yet". Translation - "we can't live your ideal peaceful creative life right now. We have to live in these closed boxes until they fall apart. Then we can move on". In other words "we don't appreciate you" or "we're not ready for you" or "go away, you make us nervous".

 How do you feel about this? I can be compassionate and still be me, right? Still learn and live my own way, right? People won't judge me if I don't judge them... Right?

From the Emissary of Love: James Twyman, The Psychic Children Speak to the World, book -

"Are you ready to act as though you are loved by god?
What would you do if you were a emissary of love right now? Begin."

 I think we can be ourselves. That we don't have to change ourselves just because it challenges society.  We don't have to go to these schools if we know they aren't healthy for us. I think I need to trust my intuition completely before I go into a school. At least then I would have more compassion for the teacher and the textbook when I know they've got the wrong information. To trust myself and be compassionate to those who don't yet trust themselves.

Really we're in school already. School is life. The teachers come. There's no hurry but the rush to re-member who you are. We are... Let us just be us. "I just want to be myself"

Love you,
Share your strength, remind others of theirs,
Think violet... In forgiveness there is freedom.

Roxi Hansmukh
til_infinity@hotmail.com
 

I've never officially been told I'm an indigo by anyone, but I intuitively know that I am one. I can't help regretting being who and what I am. Being an indigo ensures a life of persecution by those who are incapable of understanding me. I was always gifted in school. In grade school I was always the first or second person done with an assignment and always got good grades. In 5th grade my teacher wanted to skip me to the 6th grade. I was admitted into the gifted and talented program in my school. In my junior high years I was put into advanced math, and in high school I was in accelerated English. School always came easy to me, as did learning. When I was young, I experienced a lot of precognitive dreams. I still have some, but not as often as when I was a kid. I have an ability to see through people and see their true motives. I often times speak of future events that have no basis in fact at the time, but are later proved to be accurate in the future. It's so hard to have these abilities. Speaking out against the system, and relating the things I see to other people only causes tension. I become ostracized and persecuted for my beliefs. It's a tough road. I'm exhausted all the time.

I tried college for a brief period. After 44 credit hours I got tired of all the tedious work involved and dropped out. The work was easy, but it was just too time consuming. Having little energy or motivation to do the work was the main reason I decided to drop out. I love to learn, but I learn in periods. I'll find something that interests me one day, research the heck out of it, and then the next day I might not be as motivated to learn about that as I am something else. Over the past year and a half I've been like a man on a mission trying to learn everything. As my life progresses I'm noticing that I'm having problems with short term memory loss, chronic fatigue, lack of motivation, problems communicating the profundities I've come to know with other people without making them angry, and persecution. At night I look up at the sky and just wish I could go home, although I'm never sure where home is. I feel out of place here. I just feel like I don't belong. I feel different from everyone, and it hurts. I feel real loneliness, like nobody in the world understands me. The more I witness the cruelty of humanity, the more detached I become. If this is what it means to be an indigo, all I can say is take it back I don't want it.

- James Hein--22 years old.
 

A week ago I knew nothing of the indigo generation. A friend of mine said
something last week that struck a note. Maybe it was that we have what she
said was a bull shit detector or that we had a real need for changing and
making something good of the planet earth. Then I read the voices on this
very page and realized that it was no note but something more like a
symphony. I felt like there was a chance I had written some of these poems
and thoughts under a pseudonym.

I wish to relate my experiences of the past. Maybe you will recognize
something as well.

In the middle of my four years of depression in middle/high school I had a
truly moving night. Something truly unspeakable if only because there can
never be enough words. Euphoria would be appropriate but this seemed to be
that and more. I had five hours of this utter knowledge that I was part of
this huge thing that I guess I will call humanity. I felt this amazing
amount of power in this seat of knowledge. I knew that even though I would
continue on in depression that I would smile every time something bumped my
brain and made me remember. As I smile now. I felt like a sun.

At various times I have felt this connection to people in the room I sit in,
with neighbors and friends. But the experience of that night has yet to
repeat itself. In its entirety at least. November 21st 2004 I moved myself
into a paler experience of that night. I say specifically moved because it
was with my express knowledge of where I wanted to be. That friend who gave
me that little tidbit of info on indigos was there with me and it was even
more amazing to have someone there to experience it with. I became
enlightened and she not only basked in what she called my furnace but rose to
my level. Loveliness. It was better because it was shared and the level
was one of those "just right" moments. It was very high but not TOO high.
Sunshine is glorious but people tend to think that absolute power is a poor
thing to raise a person on...

I identify as gay. Its odd saying it here because I know that I have been
in love with the minds of women and in a way hate myself for putting so much
into whether the body that the mind inhabits is a man.

As a child I was diagnosed with ADHD like some have also written here.
Boredom with the same old is an every day experience. I don't want to say
it but in college I have failed writing 101 and not only once.
Uninteresting things still flaunt me. I might get a hundred A's in science
or math. I'll Paint, sing, act or work clay with brilliance but something
bores me and I'm given a D or an F as my final grade. I still attend
college but I can't be sure why.

What a blessing it is to be your brother. Can you feel my smiles? Happy
Thanksgiving on this November 25th day. I truly have something to be
thankful for...

- Ryan of 1984 (20yr)
 

I live in Australia and am an Indigo. I am 27 years old and am also raising an indigo child, which is stressful because we are both fiercely determined. From the time I was young I have always had a feeling of destiny. Have always been fiercely determined and convicted, I have also felt alone and misunderstood almost as if I could see others but they could not see me. I could feel people's pain as if it were my own, feel there energy, I would have and still do have dreams that foretold what was about to come. My friends jokingly call me lesson girl because it seems everyone I come in contact with by default learns from me. I embraced what I thought was my quirkiness.

I have been called an angel, an idealist, even a revolutionist, all of which I accept because they are right. It is in my core, it is in my soul, I feel it in everything around me and most importantly believe in the unseen, the forces and the dynamics at play all around us all. The time that can not be seen but can be sensed. I was blessed with a gift, and have spent many years honing and surrendering to my unique skills. I am constantly evolving. my story of evolution begins at my birth.

I was born into an abusive family and received harsher treatment because of what I am, who I am. While my others siblings hid behind silence, my quest for justice and determination resulted in me challenging my oppressor, and I was beaten for it. This is key in my evolution because the more I was beaten, the more vocal and fearless I became. And the more I learnt to love. Fear and anxiety, dishonesty, manipulation has no place in my world. Only hope, compassion, nurturing, kindness and most importantly, love, have a place. To see the world today saddens and stirs the fire within my soul but what I have learnt is you can change the world, one soul at a time.

I devote my life to helping others evolve and reach their potential I can so easily see in them.. Sometimes they persecute me because they fear. How do I respond to there persecution, I love them, I don't know any other way. They cannot see the opportunity to grow because they fear the unknown, but it has to be their choice. That is why surrendering is so important, your mind opens to infinite possibilities and suddenly you have the courage to stand by your convictions.. as humans, we so often judge others by class or status or even failure, but I challenge those people to ask themselves honestly, What is failure? Who determines that?.. The answer, in short, is us as individuals. Failure to me is just another opportunity to grow and evolve into something more than human. In my own life I will accept nothing less than extraordinary, and again, that word by my definition can be something completely different for another.

Ask yourself when everything seem to be falling around you and you have nothing left to give, is that not a perfect time to start again? Doubt is simply a pain to lonely to know that faith is his twin brother, where there is no struggle there simply is no strength and that is what this world needs, strength.

The truth is as simple as a sunrise and sunset. The moment the sun sets all mistakes made are gone and when the sun rises it is a chance to start over again. At any moment we can choose to be better people but what moment will we choose?

It is this connection which needs to be seen, the connection to each other, the earth, the universe. I could write so much more however I wish to close with my prayer and hope for humanity...

Do not be afraid to stand up for what is right, even if it means standing alone because sometimes one honest voice can be louder than that of a crowd. Lead your life in love and compassion let your soul and conviction guide you to your full potential. It is yours for the taking. Love others unconditionally, treat the homeless man with the same respect you would treat another.

So for the moment, I will continue to help people, one soul at a time, for the world is not quite ready for me yet but when it is... I will be there.

In peace and love
Priscilla


PS: As I have evolved, I have found others like myself and with them I am understood.
 

Indigo brothers and sisters,
rejoice in our gathering,
embrace in our living,
we are here,
always near,
reach out,
do not feel left out,
close your eyes,
join us, for Jesus cries,
the joy fills his heart,
knowing were not apart,
the time to find is near,
only a blink away from fear,
join us, for Jesus cries,
the joy fills his heart,
knowing we're not apart.

-- Ilafatu

I was conversating in my room with my best friend Lora and one of her friends I have never met before. my friend had not seen her in quite a wile and I could pick up on the vibes that she knew something changed. we were laying on my bed. I can say this girls ego and conceded attitude started to annoy me but she is a Leo so I understood it was just part of her. beyond how I felt about her she seemed to admire every thing I said, the things in my room commenting on how much I reminded her of a girl she once knew...then she said... your an indigo....an indigo child... those words hit me and all I could say was what? I was drawn to it I don't know why... the next day I looked it up, and sure enough I was puzzled by what I was reading...every thing on that list I read was me..... about my parents not understanding not only my parents but the shrinks they would send me to were puzzled by my mind,,, they didn't know weather I was bipolar, ADD, I was in trouble in school for being defiant... but to me it was just staying true to who I was and how I felt. this was when I was 13 and then my mother couldn't take it anymore that I wasn't shaping into my her ideal image of do and act as I want. she kicked me out and know I am presently living with my dad its been about two years I am 15 know... but every one is still puzzled by my actions and reactions to things....how I speak and how I think.

I posted poetry and thoughts on a myspace.com...my name on it is kayak may. I am an artist and allot of my art is filled with these strange ideas behind them.. I would never think about labeling my self I have always been me, different... thinking ahead of all the children I've grown up with since a small child.. I have memories from when I was little, strange memories. my mom says that I would say I saw people coming out of churches that and the people I saw weren't there and I have memory of seeing such things when I was 3 or so... how my mind races with all these thoughts of there's away all this stuff is connected and I'm not just imagining it or blowing it out of proportion. all the people that are around me at school, I don't socialize with for one reason or another, I'm a friendly person and all its just they're not on my level and think I'm stupid...but I choose to think they're just ignorant and to involved in there high school drama to open their minds to topics that have meaning and thought to them. Even the kids that like the same things I do, theirs something missing...theirs few people im close to and understand and except my ideas, except my best friend Lora. I hope you can help me with the journey of discovering what's going on with me and how it plays a part in what's going on in the world. Even if you say...im wrong, I know there is something going on and I yearn to discover the mystery or tap in on it at the least. I just want to learn and live with the most beauty as possible.

Thanks for your time I hope to hear your comments on this letter,
Cortney Renée Rubio
 

I just wanted to say thank you. This is the first site where I see people are a lot like me. A lot of their experiences are a lot like my own throughout my whole life, even now. I'm 33 and still feel like I don't really belong anywhere. I'm highly spiritual but don't believe in any one religion. Sometimes I want to go back home (in the spiritual realm) and the desire is so strong, but if I did, then I would have failed in completing my mission. What ever that may be. I'll know when I get there I guess. A lot have said that they don't feel like they belong to a certain type of group, I feel the same. Always the outsider, even among my peers. My desire to complete my mission is so strong, it is what keeps me going in life. I just wish I knew exactly what it is or what they are. I also wish I knew everything of who I really am. There is a hidden power inside me, but the key to unlock it is misplaced. Someday I will succeed and manipulate my reality so that the bigger picture is revealed.
-- Shirley

 see me with clear eyes
eyes of light
eyes of divineness
see me call to you
hear me with sound ears
ears of holiness
ears of devotedness
feel me with your heart
I beat for you
for us
shed the bitterness of yesterday
join me in the moment of today
the moment of now



-birth-
there was a moment in time
when the heavens above split
opening to the earth
sending a spirit from afar
to join below as one
in that moment a sprinkle of stardust,
a pinch of magic and a whole lot of love
was given for everlasting eternity
the child arrived
sending assurance all was complete
knowing the universe would be changed for all eternity
you are grown now our child
the time has arisen for you to awaken
to show the universe your greatness
stand tall with dignity and awareness
find in you- US
it has been so long
come to us child
we await you

Thank you for the wonderful site to be able to share with my brothers and sisters

Dizzy

Wow. When I read your article Excepts from "The Indigo's Reality" I wanted to write you. I have always thought I am very different. I have often been told that I am very different.. I just don’t think the way others do. I have always done very very well in school. Although I got the impression that Indigo children don’t do very well in school. I have always thought that there are many filtering systems in America that decide your social status. School is just one of them. You can drop out and end up working at Mc Donalds or graduate with a 3.7 GPA and go on to be a lawyer, and call your own shots at the other end of the service industry. I personally don’t want to go into the service industry at all. I want to work a job where I can have quiet and work alone, something that requires research and where I can use my hands. I am seriously considering engineering, because it is a field that will only grow with new technologies. Engineering doesn’t have a lot of clear cut rules, just the beautiful laws of physics. I am currently an exchange student on a full ride scholarship in Germany. I picked up the language very quickly. I only had the language for 2 years in my first two years of high school, and then I came here to Hamburg in August. After just two months I could express myself completely, even if I didn’t know the best words for the situation. I’ve had the chance to be in many gifted schools that would challenge me more, but my parents moved around a lot so I haven’t gone to any gifted school for more than 2 months.

I think though, that trigonometry in another language works though. The fact that I am different has always been obvious. I have always had the nickname witch. People were probably just trying to explain how I was different, but it ended up into many horrible experiences in Middle School. I’ve been beat up, cast out, laughed at, teased to no end, and even poisoned. I can’t say I was surprised that I’ve already been called Hexe (the German word for witch) a few times. Although I don’t wear black clothes, carry a pentagram, or any thing of that sort. My parents commented on it also, how I was different. I think I frustrated then with my endless questions. They say that some kids ask questions between the ages of 2 and 4 to the point of annoyance. For me that’s from the moment I could speak, until now. My old fashioned grandparents can’t stand me sometimes, because they believe that children should be seen and not heard. Most of the time I am heard and heard and heard and rarely seen. A lot of noise and chaos really does get me off. My high school in America has just 900 kids, but sometimes I just can’t take anymore people. I want to live in the country where I can have peace and quiet and a garden. You know, I totally love ice cream and milk and cheese, and off and on my entire life I have been sensitive to cows milk.. The sugars are too complex says my doctor back home, and I drink acidophilus milk or goat’s milk when I get severe stomach cramps or headaches after drinking cow’s milk or eating ice cream. Nothing makes them go away, once out of no where after eating an ice cream bar I had such bad stomach cramps and a headache that I cried. The sensitivity isn’t really permanent though, suddenly and then for a year or a year and a half I have to be careful and its over for a while.

I really like what you wrote about sleep and Indigos. I stayed with my aunt last summer and sometimes I would wake up crying. She played Enya for me.

I find that I am also extremely sensitive to the earth and the earth’s cycles. When it rains I am truly sad. That is being very difficult for me right now because it rains a lot in Hamburg (75cm) and I am used to a very sunny and bright area with only 15 cm of rain a year. I find myself very depressed and melancholic when it rains. I often retreat to my room and sit on my sun rug (where I also meditate) and read or write or listen to really emotional music. My mom also noticed this about me and I used to have my room in the basement where it was almost always dark, but we moved my room to the top floor with my window facing the sun in the morning. It helped a lot. You might want to suggest that too, that these children have rooms facing the sun in the morning. It may improve their moods in the morning. My mom is very helpful in helping me deal with my moods, we both know that I am very sensitive. She also introduced me into meditating when I was young. However this is the first time I have heard of Indigo Children. Nothing before has ever provided such an explanation. I am a very sensitive person, and I have always had nightmares of sorts. I dream very often of water. I’ve been interpreting my dreams before I knew what it meant to interpret a dream. I know that for me water means anxiety and chaos. Something that has been a big problem for me. I have read that it is typical for indigos to have problems with their parents, but I have to say what you wrote about parents applies more to the people I have gone to school with.

My mom is also different, not as much as me, but similar. We have a very open and understanding relationship. She isn’t like most parents, she doesn’t say that I have to get good grades or I have to avoid drugs or whatever. She would like me to have as many opportunities to be happy as I possibly can, and the same for my two brothers. She wants me to be healthy in every aspect of my life. Though I doubt that she has ever heard of an Indigo Child either. My brothers are similar to me. They are not as articulate or sensitive as I am, but they have both been diagnosed with ADHD. I was never tested. My mother says that the best choice she ever made was saying dead no to Ritalin. She tried instead to work with my brothers to find a center and to learn to concentrate and learn to control their minds. It works better than other kids I know who take Ritalin. She still tells us when we get really emotional to ‘take out the trash’. You stand up and look at the ground and kind of hang there and first feel the trust in yourself and identify that right now you are full of negative energy, then you start out the toes and motion like you are pulling the negative energy out of yourself all the way up to your head, and then you throw it away. I personally like the motion of shooting a basketball hoop afterwards to really toss it out. I also have (yes still) a drawer. Its an empty drawer that I put my bad emotions in and once in a while I open it, and I sit in front of it, and I think about it and I deal with them. I’ve been searching the last year or so for a religion and I change my mind often. I am finding it hard to find a religion that meets all my spiritual needs. I am currently looking into techno paganism. Although most of my family is Christian and that works for them, I know that I need something more. I am sorry that this has been so long, but I have the feeling that you would like to hear as much as possible from us.

On a final note I have always had the feeling that there was a string tied around me, and that it was pulling me faster and faster into the future, into newness. It was like I would be reading something and then it would suddenly be, yea, that’s right! or, duh, of course, like when I started to get into German, and I thought hmm it would be cool to go to Germany, think of all the good I could do with those experiences. Then it was like. AH! Perfect! Im going to Germany. And here I am, full ride scholarship and all the glory. I love science, I really really love science. Especially space. I think that aeronautical engineering would be the perfect job for me. I think that if I, as an American teenage girl from a lower middle class family, can go to Germany at 16 on a full ride scholarship, and look at the whole world with wide eyes and a unquenchable thirst for knowledge, then there has to be others, and there has to be a chance. I have a dream that scientists can work together totally oblivious to politics and get so much more done. Simply because they love it, and they want to accomplish the same things. I think that Indigo Children, are just the people to make things like this happen. As well as indigo children who are interested in bettering other parts of the world. Leaders among leaders, all we need is focus, a common goal, and lots and lots of funding.

Blessed Be
Jewels
 

A friend sent me to this website tonight. It has been less than a month
since I first discovered the Indigo idea, and I know that I am one. Last year,
I had this dream and I felt compelled tonight to share it with people who
would understand:

The dream was long, but at the end there was a crowd gathered in the middle
of a lane of a raised section of highway that ran through a city. And
in front of the crowd was a pair of doors, as if to the back of a van but I knew
that there was more beyond them.

Everyone was frightened of the monsters that were behind the doors. That
was the word I remember...monsters. I walked forward, knowing that if there
was a fight, I was going to be the one to do it. People told me I was
crazy...asked me why I was doing it. I turned back and said "I have to. I'm the
only one that can love them."

I woke up after that, but I remember it vividly. I've always thought that
there was something very important I was meant to do in my life.

- Kelly, 27 years old.
 

 

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