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Date: Friday November 18, 2005
Time: 09:22 PM
my view is more radical and oblique i feel that influence is a proper component to love. the way we ostricize the magic and hope for something better allows us to put more energy and sweat into our preloving relationship. to love someone you first have to care and have some form of compassion for someone. i display my love in various ways. sometimes i give in easily and accept another persons grips and emotions like an premature, horrific,hated christmas present. hoping to grasp the attention of my love component. it may seem self destructive. but i find my way to be easy to do with out thought and my own emotion. i will not display a genuine emotion that would portray me as a strong willed person. i have struggled fro many years with a sense of self identity and loving for myslef. i look for outward influences also people and idles to guide my spirit . however i am coming to terms with my inflation of self pity. i will guarantee myself a 100% of exchange of flesh for a positve image. what that means is i am willing to give up just about anything to be accepted as normal. this is very sad and injust way to view life. it represents turmoil and despair. i will love to have round table discussion with my closest friends. but i don't have many close friends. i need to find myself. or maybe even better acknowledge who i really am. i should learn from my experiences.
